| ok sooo to start off. ive just been fucked for the fucking o38472430 time. but yea so one minute dustin acts like he likes me and the next he doesnt. i cant fucking deal with this. i like him to much to be toyed with everyday. and fuckin i started to talk to kane again but i was talking to alex about it and hes like trust me dont go there. really jsut dont. and he admitted to me that when i first got here that he was tlaking to kane and was like yea shes still beautiful adn blah blah blah. but yea and i still like him alot. and im done with kane i knwo i soudn like jessica right now but really im doen. hes sitting here flirting with bethany right in fucking front of me. and fucking aljdfkal;fjkldfjakld fjidk i hate guysss!! when im with alex i want him back but when im with dustin i want him back too. and alex is reallyyy drunk. lol sorry but yea im at his place right now. and i just kinda wish that things wouldnt have changed from me and dustin. even tho he likes kelly...he was supposed to go on a date with her last night and i guess she stood him up or something...but idk ill type later when i get home |
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| ok so this might be a long one..to start off i never thought that me and dustin were gonna break up...yea i was wrong..i love him so much still. he jsut randomly stopped likeing me and i cant stand not being with him. exspecially since wer hooked up this weekend.and i regret it cuz it just made me hurt myself even more..and then yea alex yea i liked him but i guess it just kinda seemed liek he was my back up guy or somethign and i hate saying that but its kinda true.and yea idk i reallyy and sucking it up with guys. i need to just be single but then im just gonna do even more stupid stuff then i did before..i really jsut think that i shouldnt have been born. cuz i catn please my family or my friends and fuck up everyything. not kidding you. everything. i just wish that everythign was easy again wher u gave the sad puppy dog face adn everythign was ok. and u didnt fall in love. im never gonna say i love you again. i hate those words. they just arent real to me anymore. everytime ive said them i got hurt..and to top it all off jacob started talking to me again. and yea i reallyyyyy got the biggest wrong impression ever. cuz when i found out that him and logan were dating liek 20 mins ago. my heart dropped and i got all teary eyed. yea im happy forhim but it also sucks. everytime kat said i want u two guys to get back together i always said in my head yea me too : /...everysingle time. and when she askedmeif i still liked him i denyed it. and i think that i was just to late. well idkthat for a fact. but yea. i really have just fucked up with all the guys ive dated. and my life is passing way to fast for me to deal with this all. my grades are all fucked cuz im always sleeping. i dotn hang out with anyone that i used to. and the only person i was looking forward to talking to again. is finally with someone. i really fucked up this time.. i shouldnt be here. : '[ |
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| grrr rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i love dustin so much!!! and im really happy! even tho hes being a BUTTT right now! but yea tonight i bought him 2 shirts for our 3 month thingy. yea anddd idk what else to say but i love him more than anything in the world and id give anythign to be with him and yea idk i odnt want to lose him ever!!!! hes soo freaking cuteee!!!! haha and hes alottt of fun if u know what i mean ; ) HEHEHE lol yea hes so freakiing perfect even if he thinks hhes not he is no matter what anyone says or things or what he says or thinks he is! andddd always will be. damn i was typing really fast and now im not ok now i am but yea. if i look at the keyboard then i can type fast but if i look at the screen i cant. im gonna go lay and cuddle with my baby noww!! muahh i love dustin blake copeland with all my heart and always will and ill never let him go hes the bestest thing that has ever happened to me anddd i never want tot take the chance of losing him EVERRR! : ] MUAH DUSTIN! : ] |
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| ok so noww jacob wants me to explain about how much time wass in between each guy. even tho no one reads this...but yea after jacob like 8 days then i went out with kyle for 2 weeks then after that like a week or a lil more then i went out with kane then after that maybe like 2 weeks later now im with dustin! : ] and reallyyyy happy with that.
and jacob claims that he hates me. andd i know he doesnt. but he says he does. and idk if i should believe him. cuzz that would really suck cuz i didnt do anything for him to hate me. i dont think. and it will suck and mmake me sad if he really does hate me... |
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